Thankful Thursday: The Baby Boy

I'm finally able to sit down and write out my thoughts and share my thankfulness. I've been trying to do this for the past 3 weeks but something else always seems to jump in the way.

First off, I'm so thankful for family. Even though I've been blessed with another wonderful child, these last few weeks have been difficult for me and having family to simply call and check on me has made a wonderful difference.

Secondly, I'm so thankful to have gotten this time to spend with my children and extended family. It's an opportunity that I looked for forward through out my whole pregnancy and it's a time that I'll always treasure.

And lastly, I'm enjoy this warmer weather. I know come June/July I'm gonna really regret this hot year but right now, still in winter and having 70 degree temps, well, it sure makes playing outside a little easier. :)

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Thankful Thursday: Christmas Eve 2009

Maddie has drifted off back to sleep and so I thought I'd throw a Thankful Thursday in today. :)

I am so very thankful for:

1. My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

2. My family: immediate and extended are just plain awesome!

3. My job: every day is filled with laughter, joy, and satisfaction.

4. Money to repair the car @ Christmas time when you just thought you were going in for an oil change. :)

5. My house: even thought it's not my dream, it's changed me in ways I never knew possible.

6. My education: it's a part of my soul.

7. My blog: I just love sharing with you.

What are you thankful for today?? :)

Thankful Thursday

I'd like to just take a moment and say how thankful I am for my job. I am so blessed to be able to do something that I love all day. My life is filled with joy, laughter, toddler tantrums, and great art projects. :)

We've been practicing for our Holiday program, which is tomorrow. Today we'll be walking over to the trade center, right next door, to actually do a on-stage practice. I love watching the kids faces right before they get ready to throw their snowballs at me. :)

Each one of them is so special to me. Again, I never thought I'd actually get paid to sit around and play all day. Thanks, Lord, for making me a part of the team!

Thankful Thursday

*warning*

I'm down a bit. Not the most postive post out there today.

I've posted a great deal on the thankfulness of my family and their health, and it's mainly because I'm around many, who, at times, are not so healthy, and then there's my own baby girl, who for the past week and a half has had a hard time with viruses and bugs.

Maddie began throwing up Tuesday night/Wednesday morning. I went on in to work, knowing we'd be leaving once coverage could get there. She wasn't running a fever, but couldn't eat without gagging. By 8:30 we were out the door and heading home when I spoke with Sean and he said he'd take off work and watch her. Well, he'd be the only one besides myself I'd allow watch my girl when she was this sick.

I also called the dr. in regards to dehydration. It had been over 12 hours and she'd only had about 2 ounces of fluids with no wet diaper yet. The nurse said if by 2:00 pm she still wasn't peeing to call them back and we'd go from there. I called Sean off and on the whole day. He was able to get two more ounces in her but she still wasn't putting any fluids out. I called the dr. back @ two and she decided Maddie needed to be seen. She said we'd be going to the Memorial office.

Well, as some of you know, I suffer from panic and anxiety attacks. I'm ashamed of them, and would almost sell my soul to the devil to be rid of them, but I don't and instead I try to thank the Lord for them and their humbling ways.

Back to the story...the Memorial office is on the 8th floor. I haven't been there in several years. Actually after the last time when I "couldn't" do it. I wasn't able to go up. I was a horrible mother, I couldn't make the appointment and had to reschedule. Yes, tie me to a stake and burn me now, I deserve it, and my heart is forever scar from my decision on that day.

And, again, back to the story...we walked up 8 flights, get into the office, and then are told that my doctor isn't over there today. I smiled. :) However, since we'd spoken to the nurse several times that day, the office was expecting us and within 5 minutes we were back in a room to see a dr. It was then that Maddie become restless as if she wanted to nurse. I layed her in my lap to get everything ready and her little bird-like mouth opened up for the first time in almost 24 hours to eat. I was over joyed, as I do believe she was as well. :)

The dr. came in, checked her out, said he thought she'd just had the 24 hour bug and was on the mend. She'd lost 2 ounces since her last visit a week ago where we went in for a cold/croup. He said 2 ounces was very minimal. I was ok with that. :) So, we headed back home, much more relieved and worry free. :) It was around 6:00 pm when Maddie become fussy again and I felt it was just fine to nurse her again. I was wrong. After she'd finished with one side, I put her to the other, and after eating for a moment, she just began vomiting, EVERYWHERE. I sat her up and it just kept coming. Her little heart was beating so fast, it absolutely broke mine. She didn't cry, but was definitely started by it all.

We were back to step one. Within an hour she was running a low grade fever and was tired. We decided I'd offer her small amounts of milk every 2 hours. I went and laid down with Maddie and Sean woke us up about every 2 hours. She ate without gagging but continued on with the fever til around 3:00 am this morning.

I don't like when my kids are sick. My fear level runs through the roof and I can't concentrate on anything else. How do you do it? How do you place all faith in the Lord and accept what He offers?

My Thankful Thursday is about little moments. I am thankful that Maddie did not require IVs for hydration. I'm thankful that even with the stomach bug she's been able to keep down small feedings. I'm thankful that her fever never got too high, and that we were able to stay home and comfort her. I'm thankful that her daddy was able to stay home with her yesterday. I'm so blessed to have this family, and yet, at times I'm so scared of losing what I know is so precious.

Please pray that my baby girl finally gets over this hump of colds and viruses and that I trust more in the Lord when it comes to my kids safety and well being.

Thankful Thursday...Just A Day Late :)

Just needing to take a moment and be grateful for this amazing life God has given me:

I am a mother of three amazing kids. And, its through God and my family that my life has been touched so deeply. Each child has brought joy and laughter into my life. Being a mom at 16 was an interesting moment in time. I am so grateful that my parents always put education at the forefront of my life. Even with the obstacle of raising a child, my parents took on the financial responsibility which allowed me to stay in school, graduate, and continue on to college. I am so blessed to have had, and to still have the opportunity to continue with my education.

Back to my oldest son, Austin, who has indeed helped to center my life. Without him a piece of this family would have been missed. I am so grateful that my mother was able to spend time with her grandson; that they were able to build memories together.

I was graduating from college when I had my second son, Jeremy, who is also pictured above, and I feel as if I was just a vessel for him, and that he entered this world arms wide open saying, "come on life, I want it all!" I've never been able to keep up with him and nor do I ever think I possibly will. He is an untamed spirit with a big smile on his face.

And now to Maddie, the youngest, and probably the last. She came at a time in my life when I needed new breath. Since the passing of my mom, I've sat in my own sorrow, not fulling participating in life, but counting the days til it was all over. Don't get me wrong, I've had plenty of happy days, but truly, I never got over the pain of losing her, until Maddie changed my world. God sent her to soften my heart and bring joy back into the every day moments of life. This is the 4th Thanksgiving and Christmas without my mother and for the first time in 3 years I'm actually excited about the holidays. I'm excited about sharing them with family. I'm no longer jealous of others who still have mothers to hug, but I'm standing strong and searching for ways to be a better mother myself.

Again, I have been greatly blessed and I am so thankful that God gave me one more chance to wake up and see all that I've been given. Happy Belated Thanksgiving and now A Merry Christmas to you all!

Thankful Thursday

I came across Thankful Thursday last week from Are You There God? It's Me and just loved the idea. So, here is my Thankful Thursday.

I am so thankful for my family and friends. Without them my life would be dull and empty. I am also so thankful for God's grace, for without it, I would have no way of breaking free and living a life of eternity.

What's your Thankful Thursday??